my home.
the two words carry so many emotions. HOME always means comfort. any place on the earth and over the heavens with all the luxury and ambience and beauty and charm and exotism and whatever else do not compare with HOME.
relationship is like that. it can be about love, about friendship, about belongingness, why, even about hate and about jealousy. each one has its own place. nothing can compare.
prudence is in the base. lovliest of homes will not stand without a strong foundation. love will not sustain a relationship if the foundation of trust is missing.
even without a trace of any emotional bonding, relationships survive years, simply on the merit of mutual trust. despite the deepest of feelings, hearts break in the blink of an eye, due to sheer baseless suspicion.
they say it isnt easy. to trust. to believe. i say, easy and difficult are the parameters which apply to a problem. life is not a problem.
thankfully.
i trust.
and u do, too. trust me.
the most beautiful emotion, the strongest, and yet the most fragile, is a tie between love and trust. prudence votes for trust. of course, most of the times i'll get kicked for trusting.
what i do weighs with me. loving is beautiful. deceiving stains. distrust and suspicion, if u just think straight enuf, are basically deceit. okay, i might get kicked. but i will still be beautiful.
i will still be free to fly. nothing weighs me down. trust is my wings.
love brings me down to earth. trust takes me high up in the skies.
well. i have the sweetest home.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Tick Tock Timer
time does not come with a label.
time flows around. it passes by. it comes, and it goes. but it does not carry any label. every single moment is identical. there are no names. no identification. no constraints. no limits. no fences and boundaries. no demarcations or differentials. its boundless and endless. and it contains but will not be contained.
its we who break it into pieces. early times are relatively free, but as the flow passes by, we try to demarcate it more and more. we will not eat lollipops, because we are grown ups. we will not break windows, because we are grown ups. we will not speak our minds, because we are grown ups. we will not cry freely, because we are grown ups. we will not laugh heartily, because we are grown ups. what the hell!!!
when the time came, it did not come with its do's and don'ts. what should guide us in doing or not doing, i believe, is our own body. at the age of 60, if i am healthy enough, why cant i play hide and seek? if i have broken my jaw, that will definitely dictate my laughing and crying. but why should we bind the time in this?
then there is time for lunch and for dinner. time to go out and come in. time to talk and to keep quite. why? again, if i live as i am intended to live, my body will guide me rightly, what has time got to do with dining and lunching? my body will be more healthy if i follow what my body tells me, rather than trying to synchronise it with my enforced territories of time which do not even exist.
again, if i live as i am intended to live, my heart will guide me rightly, and my brain, and not time, in expressing myself. what has time got to do with expressions? its impartial and impersonal. it levels everything, big and small. it measures all as just the same. its perfectly expressionless, identical in each moment.
timer is ticking. by the time we realise what we have wasted, we will have lost all the precious moments.
time has always been free. all it expects is for us to have it to its fullest. it does not come with a label.
let me not restrict myself to the dogmas and the limits. let me flow along with the Great Flow, and i will know contentment.
time flows around. it passes by. it comes, and it goes. but it does not carry any label. every single moment is identical. there are no names. no identification. no constraints. no limits. no fences and boundaries. no demarcations or differentials. its boundless and endless. and it contains but will not be contained.
its we who break it into pieces. early times are relatively free, but as the flow passes by, we try to demarcate it more and more. we will not eat lollipops, because we are grown ups. we will not break windows, because we are grown ups. we will not speak our minds, because we are grown ups. we will not cry freely, because we are grown ups. we will not laugh heartily, because we are grown ups. what the hell!!!
when the time came, it did not come with its do's and don'ts. what should guide us in doing or not doing, i believe, is our own body. at the age of 60, if i am healthy enough, why cant i play hide and seek? if i have broken my jaw, that will definitely dictate my laughing and crying. but why should we bind the time in this?
then there is time for lunch and for dinner. time to go out and come in. time to talk and to keep quite. why? again, if i live as i am intended to live, my body will guide me rightly, what has time got to do with dining and lunching? my body will be more healthy if i follow what my body tells me, rather than trying to synchronise it with my enforced territories of time which do not even exist.
again, if i live as i am intended to live, my heart will guide me rightly, and my brain, and not time, in expressing myself. what has time got to do with expressions? its impartial and impersonal. it levels everything, big and small. it measures all as just the same. its perfectly expressionless, identical in each moment.
timer is ticking. by the time we realise what we have wasted, we will have lost all the precious moments.
time has always been free. all it expects is for us to have it to its fullest. it does not come with a label.
let me not restrict myself to the dogmas and the limits. let me flow along with the Great Flow, and i will know contentment.
Drops and Rain
it starts drizzling outside. the child runs out to see the beautiful fresh rains. she goes out, rain falling over her, to catch a few drops. she closes her fist but drops will not remain. she frowns. it doesnt take her more than a few seconds to realise that drops will not be trapped into her fist. she smiles again, stretches her arms, and merry-go-rounds herself, taking not a few drops but all the rain, absorbing it, feeling it, and then letting it slide down. face up, looking at the clouds and the sky and the rainbow, she dances with the joy of the moment.
let me enjoy life like the rain falling all over me. if i try to catch the moments, i will only be miserable. the whole of life is drizzling beautifully all around me, its madness to worry about catching a few moments. i will frown, for time will not be trapped. let me open my eyes, look at the sky, stretch out my wings and feel the air. life will not wait for me. if i close my eyes now, clouds are not going to go away, rainbows are not going to stay. let me take in, absorb, feel, whatever life has for me. and then let it go. it will not do to try and catch anything.
let me live my life like the child, and then will i have lived.
let me enjoy life like the rain falling all over me. if i try to catch the moments, i will only be miserable. the whole of life is drizzling beautifully all around me, its madness to worry about catching a few moments. i will frown, for time will not be trapped. let me open my eyes, look at the sky, stretch out my wings and feel the air. life will not wait for me. if i close my eyes now, clouds are not going to go away, rainbows are not going to stay. let me take in, absorb, feel, whatever life has for me. and then let it go. it will not do to try and catch anything.
let me live my life like the child, and then will i have lived.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Perceptions
Everyone sees the world as he is. Even when I 'step into other man's shoes', I'll still think the way I do, and there's no way in the world I can ever think someone else's way.
When I look at other person and try to see things through his perspective, or when I react to his behaviour keeping in mind his personality, however much I school myself to see things his way, I'll still be doing things my own way.
I am a person who keeps to myself. Who expresses a lot through actions, body language, tone, way of doing things. Who concises his speech so as to convey max through a layer of meanings by judicious use of words. When the other person says no, I'll interpret the no in my way. I'll try to decipher the no, because thats how I speak: layering the words with multiple meanings and inferences. I'll draw the inferences, the ones which I'd have conveyed if I were saying no in the given situation. The other person gives me a gift. The way I've grown up and groomed, the atmosphere and culture I've been brought up in, giving gift in that particular situation might mean something and I'll fix that something as the other person's intentions.
The no could simply have been that, a plain vanilla no. Without any future implications and past references. Without any inbuilt meanings and inherent inferences. A no can always simply be a no and nothing more. But thats not how I think and so I cannot on my own realise which one of the no's is plain vanilla and which a paraphrase for a whole lot of talk. When its me who interprets the no, it simply won't occur to me that it can be nothing more than what it is.
The gift might be just that, an impulsive gift, with nothing more to read into the gesture. A small momentary pleasure for the giver. But since I have never had anything to do with impulse I'll try to connect it with reason. I'll think up all sorts of reasons for that gift. I'll react based on what I perceive is the actual reason. If I cant zero in on one, if I get confused as to what its all about and cant make up my mind, god save me. Because thats a hell of a situation for me and simply sinks my confidence to an abysmal depth.
On the other hand, I am a person who speaks his mind. Has no hidden agendas and prefer the vanillas all the way in life. When I am happy I smile. When I don't like I let it show on my face, and even prefer to let the other person know, not in an implied manner through my gestures, but up front, in clear words, leaving no place for any confusions or need for deductions to be made and inferences to be drawn on the part of other person. When I say no to something, I do not cover any implicit things in that no. So when someone says no to me, it would mean a straightforward no to me. The other person may have implied that he needs a little persuasion. Or that he needs to be pampered. Or that the no is not limited for this occasion but would cover all future events as well. I simply become a dumb head in this regard because I'd not even know that I have to assume things before interpreting what other person says. I'll react to the no based on how i do things - take it to be a plain vanilla one time no.
The gift I receive would never convey to me anything more than what it is, because I myself would never have expected my gift to be self-explanatory. If I were gifting with a purpose in my mind, I'd explicitly speak out the purpose as well. Assumptions is simply not my way. So when I get a gift, there's no force in the world to inform me that the gift has a purpose attached to it which I'm supposed to know. My reply to the gift will solely be a reply to a gift. If the other person expected me to understand deeper meanings, god help him and and help me too. Because I'm gonna lose so many valuable relationships simply because I keep things simple and straight.
Even if I try to step into the shoes of the person saying no or giving a gift, and try to think things out his way, what I'm ultimately doing is thinking what I'd have done and why. Thats what we all do every time we think about others, in all given situations. And what we infer this way is also mostly incorrect, for faced such situation ourselves, we end up behaving totally differently.
When I look at other person and try to see things through his perspective, or when I react to his behaviour keeping in mind his personality, however much I school myself to see things his way, I'll still be doing things my own way.
I am a person who keeps to myself. Who expresses a lot through actions, body language, tone, way of doing things. Who concises his speech so as to convey max through a layer of meanings by judicious use of words. When the other person says no, I'll interpret the no in my way. I'll try to decipher the no, because thats how I speak: layering the words with multiple meanings and inferences. I'll draw the inferences, the ones which I'd have conveyed if I were saying no in the given situation. The other person gives me a gift. The way I've grown up and groomed, the atmosphere and culture I've been brought up in, giving gift in that particular situation might mean something and I'll fix that something as the other person's intentions.
The no could simply have been that, a plain vanilla no. Without any future implications and past references. Without any inbuilt meanings and inherent inferences. A no can always simply be a no and nothing more. But thats not how I think and so I cannot on my own realise which one of the no's is plain vanilla and which a paraphrase for a whole lot of talk. When its me who interprets the no, it simply won't occur to me that it can be nothing more than what it is.
The gift might be just that, an impulsive gift, with nothing more to read into the gesture. A small momentary pleasure for the giver. But since I have never had anything to do with impulse I'll try to connect it with reason. I'll think up all sorts of reasons for that gift. I'll react based on what I perceive is the actual reason. If I cant zero in on one, if I get confused as to what its all about and cant make up my mind, god save me. Because thats a hell of a situation for me and simply sinks my confidence to an abysmal depth.
On the other hand, I am a person who speaks his mind. Has no hidden agendas and prefer the vanillas all the way in life. When I am happy I smile. When I don't like I let it show on my face, and even prefer to let the other person know, not in an implied manner through my gestures, but up front, in clear words, leaving no place for any confusions or need for deductions to be made and inferences to be drawn on the part of other person. When I say no to something, I do not cover any implicit things in that no. So when someone says no to me, it would mean a straightforward no to me. The other person may have implied that he needs a little persuasion. Or that he needs to be pampered. Or that the no is not limited for this occasion but would cover all future events as well. I simply become a dumb head in this regard because I'd not even know that I have to assume things before interpreting what other person says. I'll react to the no based on how i do things - take it to be a plain vanilla one time no.
The gift I receive would never convey to me anything more than what it is, because I myself would never have expected my gift to be self-explanatory. If I were gifting with a purpose in my mind, I'd explicitly speak out the purpose as well. Assumptions is simply not my way. So when I get a gift, there's no force in the world to inform me that the gift has a purpose attached to it which I'm supposed to know. My reply to the gift will solely be a reply to a gift. If the other person expected me to understand deeper meanings, god help him and and help me too. Because I'm gonna lose so many valuable relationships simply because I keep things simple and straight.
Even if I try to step into the shoes of the person saying no or giving a gift, and try to think things out his way, what I'm ultimately doing is thinking what I'd have done and why. Thats what we all do every time we think about others, in all given situations. And what we infer this way is also mostly incorrect, for faced such situation ourselves, we end up behaving totally differently.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
life's queer. but its great. fear, apprehension, tension, confusion, bewilderment......all will be there....its still sweet. bittersweet? but then i like bitter too. its better to like things than to hate.
after all, u dnt know the whole. so why base ur concepts on part? so if anyway there has to be a concept compulsorily, i'd rather make it a positive one :)
thx :)
after all, u dnt know the whole. so why base ur concepts on part? so if anyway there has to be a concept compulsorily, i'd rather make it a positive one :)
thx :)
Saturday, November 8, 2008
day one and the title
Created the blog.
Something about the title -
it is a fact afterall that its beyond us to see the whole. all we can have is a glimpse.
the right specs also make a lot of difference sometimes.
no specs is a still better condition.
i'll not be talking about the whole - no, thats just not possible.
let's see.
Something about the title -
it is a fact afterall that its beyond us to see the whole. all we can have is a glimpse.
the right specs also make a lot of difference sometimes.
no specs is a still better condition.
i'll not be talking about the whole - no, thats just not possible.
let's see.
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